2011 has come to an end and 2012 is here and filled with possibilities. For me a year ends and begins with a lot of self reflection, and it was during one of those moments that I became aware that I live in fear and am filled self doubt. I fear pursuing my dreams, I fear stepping out of my comfort zone, and most of all I fear that I will be a complete failure at anything I try. These thoughts are not uncommon but it wasn't until the other day that I realized how much I am missing out because of my fears.
So I made a decision, this year will be about the courage and strength to overcome my fears. It will not be an easy task, and I'm not sure where I'll start, all I know is that I'm up for the challenge.
Side note: This is not a typical post that one would usually find on my blog. In the past I've been scared to get personal (fear that people would not be interested in what I have to say) but today I said fuck it and wrote and shared it anyway.
as far as your side note goes, i say: do this more often. :) i like hearing what you have to say. FOR REAL.
ReplyDelete@suzy THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! Worry not, more post like this one are in the works. Before you know it you'll be wishing I would just go back to posting pics :)
ReplyDeleteonce you learn how to swallow your fear, trying new things becomes addicting, trust me lol. i'm excited to see you work on overcoming your fears this year and reading your more personal stuff! :)
ReplyDeletei love this post in all sorts of ways BRING it on :)!!! i'm ready for the FOR REAL Brandi .... happy new year to you !!
ReplyDeleteI agree, it's good to hear what's on your mind and heart!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great resolution. The best kind, in fact. I have wrestled with similar demons and, in my case, I came to the realization that my fears were rooted in growing up with a critical, perfectionistic mother. So whenever I hear those voices in my head, I have to consciously over-rule it. I was just talking to my niece about this the other day. She said she was afraid to do something she really wanted to, and I said why would you let Fear make your decisions for you? Fear has caca for brains. And 80% of the time, the thing we fear never comes to pass anyway.
Chatty kathy. Sorry. It suffices to say "Hear, hear!" and "Good for you!" I'll be cheering you on. :)
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I agree with all of the above comments. It's nice to hear a little more from "you." Perhaps infusing more of yourself into the blog would be one way to overcome a fear?
ReplyDeleteGood luck, for serious. I think all of us hoomans live in fear, and it's not often we can recognize it so openly. Kudos to you, friend!
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I often feel the same - scared to change things, scared to try something new... just in case it all goes horribly wrong. But we don't know unless we try I guess...
ReplyDeleteI'm going to try very hard to have more courage and strength this year too - so at least we know we're not alone now :)
Good luck and a happy new year to you
p.s. I love that you wrote this too - I did a similar post a couple of days ago (with my word) and felt much better for it.
I hear you, I felt the same about getting personal on my blog at first. This is your blog sweetie, make it what you want it to be.
ReplyDeleteAs for your challenge, it sounds like a wonderful goal to achieve.
xoxox